Ashu's poems

Vexed

2008-12-29T11:58:00.000-08:00

My loneliness is sometimes so arresting.
At times my solitude becomes detesting.
I have felt a love burn so that I must tell.
A testimony of love's fiery flames burning,
Searing.
My very soul to the lower depths of hell,
Consuming.
But that love is yet fading,
Fading.
For years I've remained down here brooding.
Just looming.
Dwelling in this fiery grave.
Prepared for me by the love of my affections.
Yes the woman I love has sought to extinguish.
A love I've held so dear.
As such that I had feared, I never could relinquish.
Alas that love is yet fading,
Fading.
Into the oblivion the penitentiary of my minds eye.
Still her memory yet invades.
The very core of my fired soul.

Check and Mate

2008-12-29T11:56:00.000-08:00

Night falls...doubts rise

...and the fear of knowing nothing creeps in.

Loneliness becomes your companion

...depression becomes your friend

...the world changes shape, everything becomes alien.

Sorrow emanates from you, in your soul a bleeding heart

Pain is all you know

...suffering is all you practice.

The demons dance insanely

...The eagles' wings are clipped

...the hungry dog is left to
die.

Pain is only eased by greater pain.

A vacuum inside sucks away everything leaving you with

..
....nothing, emptiness.

All attempts have failed, all avenues now blocked.

You are behind God's back and persecution becomes your punishment.

The leaves turn brown and die

......a cold wind caresses your body.

Lost in a maze, searching for a way out
Check............and mate

......the game is over, the battle is lost.

Welcome home my friend.

Feel free to dance among the dead.

2008-08-13T15:30:00.001-07:00

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Ashus emotional frustations expressed in words, that I poeted

2008-08-05T03:08:00.000-07:00

Criminal

Hellish nightmare is this, Awakened that I have from
Confined, Caged, Thinking,
Contemplating Contemplating Contemplating

Human ,that he be immured
Amend nor correct his soul
Compassion is there not to medicate a man
or unworthy is he of heat and cold
Contrived that he be seen as offender of the Law
by these darkened shadows of humanity

Tried and sentenced
law violation , serving time
Time, merriment arent thou, neither are you a picnic
But demoralizing and dehumanizing a man
to ground and this dust
Chastise not it behaviour
Only to fuel a fire
Broached not if it with care
will in time burn everything where it lay

Now u tell me who is the real criminal???

Dalit rose

2008-06-17T14:31:00.000-07:00

Roses are red...Dalits are black thats my race so don't hold me back!! Ma Dalit pride, I will not hide... Ma Dalit race, I will not disgrace... Ma Dalit blood flows hot & true... Ma Dalit gentle will always stand by thru thick & thin till the day i die, Our Dalit flag higher than all tha rest cuz every 1 knows we Dalits R THE BEST!!! Dalit Pride is mah mind...Dalit blood is mah kind... So step aside and let me through, Cuz its all about tha Dalit crew... Life sucks and then u die but if u Dalit..!YOU DIE WITH PRIDE!!!.............................................................this msg is straight from the dalit clan to all the motherfuckers out there.........................

Anonymous

2007-12-03T13:36:00.000-08:00

Feel it in your chest the syllables get pumping
People on the street they panic and start running

Jump when they tell us that they wanna see jumping
Fuck that I wanna see some fists pumping

Risk something, take back what's yours
Say something that you know they might attack you for

Cause I'm sick of being treated like I have before
Like it's stupid standing for what I'm standing for

Like this war's really just a different brand of war
Like it doesn't cater the rich and abandon poor

These fuckers are laughing their way to the bank and cashing the check
Asking you to have compassion and have some respect

For a leader so nervous in an obvious way
Stuttering and mumbling for nightly news to replay

And the rest of the world watching at the end of the day
In their living room laughing like "what did he say?"

In my living room watching but I am not laughing
Cause when it gets tense I know what might happen

World is cold the bold men take action
Have to react or get blown into fractions

Ten years old it's something to see
Another kid my age drugged under a jeep

Taken and bound and found later under a tree
I wonder if he had thought the next one could be me

Do you see the soldiers they're out today
They brush the dust from bullet proof vests away

It's ironic at times like this you pray
But a bomb blew the mosque up yesterday

There's bombs in the buses, bikes, roads
Inside your market, your shops, your clothes

My dad he's got a lot of fear I know
But enough pride inside not to let that show

My brother had a book he would hold with pride
A little red cover with a broken spine

On the back, he hand-wrote a quote inside
When the rich wage war it's the poor who die
Meanwhile, the leader just talks away
Stuttering and mumbling for nightly news to replay

And the rest of the world watching at the end of the day
both scared and angry like "what did he say?"

With hands held high into the sky so blue,
As the ocean opens up to swallow you.

With hands held high into the sky so blue,
As the ocean opens up to swallow you.

DALIT YOUTH...........

2007-06-21T15:09:00.001-07:00

Alright here we are back once again
The outcast
Outlaw
Outsider
Wasted dalit youth
Growing excile
Here to take revenge on your society
And spit our last breath in man kind's face
We ain't got no image
And we ain't got no style
We don't rap
And we can't act
And we deffinatly ain't too fucking pretty
But we'll drink you under tha table
Knock your fucking teeth out
Steal your fucking car
Piss in your face
Fuck your fucking mother
And tell you the truth
The hole truth
And nothing but the truth.........
As we seen it while surving our life sentences
On the outside and darkside
On your sick twisted evil fucking sociaty
This here is my last chance
To rise above the gutter
And say to you and man kind and the hole fucking human race
Fuck you
This hole thing is dedicated
To all the outcasts, dalits and wasted youth out there
Doing their time on the city streets
And praying to the night sky alone
This ones for us
Our kind belongs nowhere
Welcome to excile
Welcome to nowhere
These are the out law randoms
So let's fucking do it..................................

TO DALIT BROTHERS

2007-06-21T15:07:00.000-07:00

this one's for us.

Hey brother!
I see what they done to you.
Hey brother!

Can you see what they done to me to?
No where to turn and we got nothing to lose,
But you can count on me if I can count on you. It's true!

Hey brother all we've got's each other
In a world of shit, y'know they made us suffer.
Hey brother all they let us have is each other
So let's fuck diz racist indian society up...

They'll never see the side of life I've seen
They'll never understand what made this hatred inside me breathe.
I found my dad livin in a hut on d village streets
Because they locked me out of their indian dream. They lie!
And through those years of redemption denied
I couldn't see the truth through the blood in my eyes. They lie!
I know they want to tear us up my friend,
But we can spit in their face until the bitter end, my friend!

Hey brother! I see what they done to you!
For you I will fight!
Hey brother! You can see what they've done to me too!
For you I'll do it right!
Hey brother! We got nothing to lose, it's true!
For you I'll defy!
Hey brother! So this one's for you!
till you I'll fucking die...

Hey brother, all we got's each other
And they been treatin' us rough.
Hey brother, all they let us have's each other
So this one's for us.

Hey brother, all we got's each other
Through these years so rough.
Hey brother, all they let us have's each other
So let's fuck diz racist indian society up.
They won't break my heart again.
They will never take my heart again. never again
They won't break my heart again. never again
They will never tear us up again, my friend.
They will never call us as an untouchable again.............

this one's for us...

FOR BEING A DALIT BORN.......

2007-06-21T15:06:00.000-07:00

The crime... born dalit....
My motive's clear
my final objective is to destroy and conquer all that I fear.....
The fears..... in me....in being an untouchable... instilled through the
years

that's causing growing pains
I think back.... I get irritate ......so full of hate
The truth behind the madness I faced as of late

I get irrational, but not emotional
Show no emotion will teach them to fear and respect

This world's gone straight to hell fast
It's broke my heart and soul like shattered glass.......
It's very happiness feeds my hate
It's very existence will open the gates of rage

I'm filled with distress
I want to destroy everything that's ever filled me with rage
I'm filled with distress
I want to destroy everything you've ever known and loved

I seek revenge on diz fucking racist society
To destroy all you've ever known
I want revenge on this world
For my crime of being A DALIT born

This fucking world and life owe me
a lifetime of heartache and pain while you've thrived
and you don't fucking know me
And I'll do all I can to rip your world apart
And I will prove why it was wrong for me to ever be
And I will unleash my vengeance upon thee

I seek revenge on your racist fucking society
to destroy all you've ever loved
I want revenge on your world
for my crime of being A DALIT born
For the crime of being A DALIT born..........

DALIT AGENDA.................[MOTHER INDIA].....................

2007-06-21T15:05:00.001-07:00

Here I am
I am a monster but I was made
Here I stand
I am a beast that was born of pain

Bred to hate in this world gone insane
But now I'm here to stay
and I live to spit in your face.

'Cause I am from the dalit side
And I am everything that you despise...........
Bred to hate in your society's eyes, it's a society of lies
And I live to spit in your face...

Mother INDIA
Look at your darling young one.
Mother INDIA
Look at what I have become.
Mother INDIA
I am you bastard disgrace.
Mother INDIA I will spit in your face...........